Friday, October 17, 2014
Otak kecil ku kembali mengingatkanku akan masa-masa mencekam satu tahun silam..
Aku mulai memvisualkan segalanya di benakku.. Langkahku goyah.. Aku terjatuh..
Lalu Ku tundukkan kepalaku seraya kutanya pada sang Maha Mendengar.
"Wahai Tuhanku, tolong sampaikan pada Si Ruang Merah, ada apa sebenarnya? Aku lelah terus mengingatnya dalam benakku. Aku tidak ingin membencinya terus menerus."
In the evening
Belum saja luka yang menganga itu meredup, datanglah lagi langkah kaki penuh arti dari Si Kecil. Mereka mengatakan bahwa wajahnya menyerupai Orang itu ! Tetapi abangku tidak meng-Iya-kan. Ia mengatakan, " iyasih dia itu.. eee.. eee.. "
"Bilang aja cantik lama banget". " Yaa itulah.. tapi dia ngga mirip kook. matanya sipit beda dengan dia, matanya belo".
Seketika hatiku meronta-ronta. Ia berteriak minta tolong. Ia minta dibelikan sebongkah es dari Kutub Utara untuk meredakan nya. Pada akhir conversation, aku berkata, "Jangan pernah sebut nama itu lagi saat berbicara denganku !".
Just Now
Ia menceritakan banyak hal tentang si Kecil yang diperlakukan s e p e s i a l oleh teman-teman nya. Seperti Bakso saja harus ada s e p e s i a l nya -___- "Hey c'mon dia hanya gadis biasa ! kau membuat ku jijik saja! " kataku dalam hati.
Sampai pada akhir sentence yang berbunyi, "kalau di kantin, biasanya temen-temen ku ngeliatin dia, tapi aku engga. Biar dia tau AKU BERBEDA".
Lalu dia lanjutkan dengan sedikit kata "eh aku di.." *TET*
Percakapan itu terputus. Aku sudah sangat lelah. Air mataku menetes tidak lama kemudian.
Kamu
Andai saja kau mengerti bahwa untuk mencapai kotaku kau harus menempuh puluhan Kilometer terlebih dahulu. Tidak ada kereta. Lalu, kau juga seharusnya mengerti bahwa awal ajaran itu menghabiskan banyak waktumu. Kau tidak akan pernah sempat menemuiku.
Atau jangan-jangan ini semua hanya rancangan mu untuk membuatku tenang???
Aku tidak tahu aku akan bertahan atau tidak. Kita akan menjalani bertahun-tahun dalam jarak yang cukup jauh dan waktu yang cukup menyita. Realita nya, Kau tidak ada di sini saat ku butuh.
Meskipun aku bisa menganggap mu ada.
Biarkan kapal ini berlayar mengelilingi samudera. Tuhan yang mengatur ke mana angin akan membawa ku pada pelabuhan yang sesungguhnya. Pelabuhan yang makmur dan sejahtera.(mf)
Friday, 17 October 2014
Wednesday, 1 October 2014
Horrible Day
Today's just horrible. I know, my mom said, "Do not think about what people are doing. You will be stress. Just focus on your study." But will you do it when you have an annoying friend ? I guess most people won't.
Just call her Ti. Let me tell you this.
I was sitting in the class when she came. On my right side, there was EL (also my friend). So there was about 6 chairs in the first row. I sat on the 2nd. Ti said to me, it's better you move beside EL. This chair is for putting bags. In a sudden, I was shocked. it's like (what the hell are you saying? ). But I didn't show that words to her. I just said, " Go find another chair and put your bag there. I have already felt comfortable here". Then she started to talk with my friend, EL. After some minutes, she repeated her words again. But I kept on saying go find another chair ! (while looking on my phone).
Later on.. the lecturer came. it was a writing class. My lecturer asked us to make a-5-paragraph essay and it's a pair work. And you know what ? I worked with Ti. Suddenly she made a horrible face like trying to tell me implied, "Oh what the hell c'mon !".
Let me tell you, Ti is famous with her laziness in doing tasks. It was like she did it 2 hours before the task would be given. And you know what ? She was always borrowing her friends's laptop. Including me. Okay, next on..
We were trying to cooperate in doing the essay. Well, I did the thesis statement, general statement, body paragraph 1, and conclusion. She did the Body paragraph 2 and 3. She told me that she was the one who would write the essay on the paper. Well, I was okay with that. After we all finished in constructing the ideas, she started to write. Anddd, I saw that she was changing my sentences. I asked her, "what are you doing ?". She said, " your sentences don't make any sense !".
Oh my God it was like she was ruining everything. But Thanks God, The task wasn't for that day. And I asked her whether I could take it home and wrote the essay.
And yess she didn't care
Just call her Ti. Let me tell you this.
I was sitting in the class when she came. On my right side, there was EL (also my friend). So there was about 6 chairs in the first row. I sat on the 2nd. Ti said to me, it's better you move beside EL. This chair is for putting bags. In a sudden, I was shocked. it's like (what the hell are you saying? ). But I didn't show that words to her. I just said, " Go find another chair and put your bag there. I have already felt comfortable here". Then she started to talk with my friend, EL. After some minutes, she repeated her words again. But I kept on saying go find another chair ! (while looking on my phone).
Later on.. the lecturer came. it was a writing class. My lecturer asked us to make a-5-paragraph essay and it's a pair work. And you know what ? I worked with Ti. Suddenly she made a horrible face like trying to tell me implied, "Oh what the hell c'mon !".
Let me tell you, Ti is famous with her laziness in doing tasks. It was like she did it 2 hours before the task would be given. And you know what ? She was always borrowing her friends's laptop. Including me. Okay, next on..
We were trying to cooperate in doing the essay. Well, I did the thesis statement, general statement, body paragraph 1, and conclusion. She did the Body paragraph 2 and 3. She told me that she was the one who would write the essay on the paper. Well, I was okay with that. After we all finished in constructing the ideas, she started to write. Anddd, I saw that she was changing my sentences. I asked her, "what are you doing ?". She said, " your sentences don't make any sense !".
Oh my God it was like she was ruining everything. But Thanks God, The task wasn't for that day. And I asked her whether I could take it home and wrote the essay.
And yess she didn't care
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